Emmie’s Blog

I’ll have an update (a proper one) up real soon, just been awful busy and no time to do anything extra. Done my job, done well in school, getting textbooks, gone to Pender, Ryan’s here tomorrow, planning birthday, getting a bunny (!!!), working my way through Zelda (once school was done, I had waaay more time), new appreciation for Ellen Page’s talent found, plans for the future made (now i just need to keep with it!!).
I have lots to talk about, so I’ll be around…

(Outside by Staind)

House sitting is officially over! It feels really nice to be at home and just not have to think about anything right now. Being in other people’s houses always makes me anxious. I don’t know why, but I can’t get comfortable. I’ll get a good night’s sleep tonight, which is good because I have to get up tomorrow and function.

There hasn’t really been a lot going on, but there’s going to be stuff happening this week.
First of all, and this is major, Mandy is going to be back from Katimavik!!! She’s flying in on Wednesday and I’ll be hanging out with her for that night. She’s also going to be sleeping over, which was a last minute thing, but nonetheless, I HAVE MY MANDY MUNCHKIN BACK!!! I can’t wait!
Another big thing, Ryan is coming back down a couple weeks early because the timing just worked out that way. He’s going to be here from Tuesday night until Thursday, maybe Friday morning depending on when her works that day. But nonetheless, I have him back too!
I also have my Psych exam on Thursday. I’m going to be studying early since Wednesday is pretty much a write-off. But really, I couldn’t care all that much. I think I’m sitting at 86 in that class for now. I’m going to do my best, but it’s just not the big thing for me right now. I mean, I got my textbook list this week. I need to start buying and selling online. Which really isn’t that big of a deal, but I’m going to see what I can do. I did some general searches on the website I was given and I think I can find a few of my really expensive ones, but I’m going to have to do a lot of spending. Thank goodness for my house-sitting cheque!

Speaking of education, I haven’t come up with anything major, but I feel like I have a goal for my future now, not like a career idea or anything like that, but it’s enough. I know what’s important to me, and I’m going to work for it. Even if it’s not monetary success. (Which was never a big deal to me anyway, but I’ve never had a goal before so this seems like a revelation to me even if it’s not.)
I mean, there’s still a lot of shit I have to work out before I get there, but now I actually feel like doing that. The whole inspiration thing I was talking about in my last post is really what I mean.

I’m also going to be getting rid of the movie list/review thing. I’ve watched a lot of those movies, and I’m sick of lists. I really have to wonder what I thought I was going to accomplish or what I was after. And it’s not just that list. It’s all those lists. I mean it’s one thing for me to have my to-do list, which I had to do to balance school and work, but I mean this lists that are just endless. I won’t finish them. So why have them? There are so many more important things.
Shit, just thinking about it, it’s no wonder I’ve been so…out of it lately. (Okay, try the last two years.) I’ll never do that to myself again. I think there’s some stuff that I have to settle. I’m going to do it now before it’s too late. It might be already, but I’ve got to do it. Jeez, I love epiphanies like these. Trick is not to let them get away.

(Music Again by Adam Lambert)

Okay, so blogging more regularly didn’t exactly work out. I guess that’s just the way things go.

I’m house-sitting again currently. But things are finally slowing down, things will be done and over with. I mean, I just had my last Phil “class” today (by “class I mean we sat down for 5 minutes to hand in our essays and then we left). I have one Psych class and then our exam is next Thursday. Creative Writing will be done by Sunday I guess. This week anyway. I just have to revise my micro short story and my actual short story. Which he had a lot to say about. Apparently I’m frustrating. Actually, you’re just impatient. My character was saying that every time he saw another character he always thought about his first memory of her or whatever, and apparently that pissed my prof off because he wanted to know what was going on…which I went onto explain in the following paragraphs. I don’t get it, but whatever. He has his opinion. And something against adverbs… Oh and ellipses. And semi colons. And poems that rhyme.
I also got a comment from someone in my class complaining about how it switched language references between French and Spanish. I was using Italian. It’s like the only language I can incorporate into my writing because I know words and phrases and stuff. Plus I have resources (ie. my family). But that comment is really understandable. I mean, Spanish and Italian are really similar and the phrase she thought was French could be mistaken for that. I was just kind of amused. But eh. Life goes on.

I met a CEO this week.

I’m re-inspired after last weekend. I don’t know why. I don’t know how long it’ll last either, but I’m starting to remember who I am. Or was. Or wanted to be. Or…I forgot again!! Shite.
Nah, I’m just kidding. But, seriously, I am re-inspired. Maybe that’s not quite the right word…actually, yes it is. I am re-inspired. High on life. Motivated. Going to kick some serious annoying ass. Smoking crack regularly. You know, average people stuff.

Unnecessary Reading Update!!!!!
Was reading Women in Love – got bored, gave up
Read Moral Disorder (Margaret Atwood) – I really liked it. Technically a collection of short stories, but they’re connected so it felt more like a novel to me. Guy at Chapters was acurate in his review. I applaud you man I don’t know the name of nor will I ever see again.
Reading Faust – no longer want to have other people’s stuff in my house. This being said, I’m kind of bored. Maybe be a repeat of Women in Love.

Okay, I should get back to my world now. I gotta be up at 5 or so tomorrow. Bed time comes early for me tonight! Talk soon. I mean it this time!

(but that was just a dream, that was just a dream… Losing My Religion by REM)

So…I really need to get back into the habit of blogging, but I have to admit, I’m stupidly busy. I kind of hate it, but I kind of chose it too. So I’ll deal.

But none of that, what can I share? I got my first compliment from my CrWr prof (I have enough skill to do the minor >_<). That made me happy for some stupid reason… Okay, it’s not that exciting. But we have to write our 6-8 page short story…it’s due next Monday and I still haven’t even come up with an idea. Only today did I have the epiphany to use an idea I had last summer. I’ve already started it, so it can’t hurt right? And this will put a limit on it, because the idea wouldn’t really work for anything too long. Mostly because I fail at writing. (But didn’t I just say… Trust me, arguing or even encouraging doesn’t work. Ryan tried yesterday bahaha. I know my limits. I know I’m not terrible. I’m not that good either.)

Anyway, I was sick last week. Just on the Friday. Allergies are worse than ever this year. I woke up at five in the morning coughing, kinda wheezing, unable to breathe because I was so stuffed up, so I went to sit on the couch thinking I was completely awake. I left my phone alarm on for 6:30 and suddenly passed out. My alarm woke me up, I turned it off, and suddenly it was seven. I would have been later for work than I normally was. (I go in early anyway, so whatever.) That’s when I decided it was better if I called in. I went back to bed until about 9:30 (this is so interesting I know). Then I had a major movie marathon. Gangs of New York, The Secret of Santa Vittoria, and Gladiator when Ryan finally joined me (him and Seann went to the driving range). He brought me two bags of chips. ^-^

Oh yeah! So Ryan had planned this surprise for Sunday the 18th (Our 9 month O.o). So, he makes me get up early (about 6), picks me up at about 7, we get in the car. I forget what it was he said, but it suddenly dawned on me, after being tormented for the past month: we were going to Victoria.
*Ryan starts to change lanes, confirming my guess*
Me: OMG are we going to Victoria?!
Ryan: FUCK YOU!
I love you too sweetie >.>
It was an awesome day. I met his friend Spencer, and we went to a few different things. BC ferries majorly stressed me out though because we missed the Ferry we wanted and just barely got on the seven o’clock. (I love that: o’clock.) Afterall, my mom went camping all last week so I had pets to take care off! All was well though.

I’m dead tired right now though. I think I’ll pop off an email to my prof about my short story and then crash. I have a Philosophy test tomorrow. Not looking forward to it, but meh. Means no homework (other than figuring out my essay topic, thank goodness it’s only about 3-4 pages).
I’ll try to update sooner than once every two weeks!! >_<

(Judy and the Dream of Horses by Belle and Sebastian)

Wow, so between work and school, I was busy. Then, let’s pile house-sitting on top of that. Sure, maybe that wasn’t high demand, but when you have to walk a dog three times a day, it definitely complicates things.
This all being said, my hard work has paid off–I bought a camera. No, nothing fancy, but it’s still the best camera I’ve ever owned. Not to mention it’s purple, so that by default is amazing. It’s so cute!!

Anyway, I guess I can’t really say that I’ve been up to a whole lot, but this weekend is definitely going to be good. I should be able to finish everything and go out on Friday. Then, on Saturday, Boy Toy comes back from Kelowna for over a week. He has some crazy surprise planned for Sunday, but apparently there’s more than one part to it. Like, I don’t even know. (Well, duh, it’s a surprise stupid. Quiet you.) So it’ll definitely be an interesting day. I’m pretty excited, even if it’s just because I get to go out for once! I’m going to be finishing up my CrWr homework tonight and studying for the Psych test. (Emphasis on Psych.) Other than that, I have no homework. My CrWr homework might take longer than I think, so that’s why I’m starting it tonight. K, getting repetitive.
I left work early today since I’d been there since 7:30. The stupid dog I was babysitting woke me up almost every day at 5am. He didn’t do that today though; he woke me at 4am. I definitely deserve to have this mental health break. I almost passed out in Philosophy, for the second week in a row! On top of that, I’m taking some meds for my allergies, but they’re not working. And I kind of think they make me a little loopy, but that might just be from being overtired. So overtired, I’m awake until my muscles start twitching. Bahahaha.

Also, spam update: Viagra says: mmmm pie…
Just what I wanted to hear viagra, thanks so very much. ;P

(Somebody to Love by Queen)

Everyone is in a  meeting, so I’m bloggin at the office. I wanted to blog last night, but I forgot. =(

Anyway, I had an awesome weekend. Ryan was in town which meant I really did nothing school related and could just relax and have fun. Epic win. Especially our walk on Sunday night. I meant to just go around for maybe 20 minutes and we ended up playing on the playground at Holly/Mt. View for an hour and a half. I still love the swings.
Kind of sucks to go back to real life, but he’ll be back in a couple weeks. ^-^

Of course, that weekend does have consequences. Ie. I am stressing over my Psych paper…or I was yesterday anyway. I was only on page two, the top of page two. But now I’m at the bottom of page three and I have a five page maximum. So, really, this paper isn’t high demand, but I guess I always feel like I should do really well in Psych since I find it so easy. I have another test next week. Shit, I haven’t done my labs… Maybe I can’t go to tennis on Wednesday. Hmm, no being active will do be good. I guess I’ll do them on the weekend and then finish them on Tuesday at the lab. If I really have to, I guess I could go to school after work one day. Ugh, not the best option.
That’s what I hate about these labs. You can do them online…but not the whole thing. So stupid. I won’t have to deal with them after this course (as far as I know anyway), but my goodness. At least last semesters were fully online. Dammit. Why don’t they use those labs instead of the crappy ones we use this semester? The other ones were more fun too. I love stabbing things into monkeys’ brains (virtually anyway =P).

I should be working right now, but both my jobs require someone else to be here. 1) I actually need supervision for one  job. 2) I have questions about the other. This meeting started at nine. It was supposed to be fifteen minutes long. It is now ten.
WHY MUST SLACKING OFF BE SO EASY?! DAMN YOU TEMPTATION!!
But not really, I love you slacking off. My job is so low in responsibility, I could do this all day and they wouldn’t notice. Unless they checked on me of course. Everyone’s too busy to do that though. And I’m certainly not complaining.

(Breakeven by The Script)

Okay, this is my happy time de-stress. Kthxbai.

Not really. Well, yes to the de-stress, but not the the baibaibahbeh.
Anyway, my life has become one giant to-do list. And every time I cross out a few, it doubles in size. I swear it’s like that scene in Hercules. I seem to remember that scene genuinely scaring me as a kid. Premonition?
Also, I love spam comments suggesting eunuchs as the ultimate solution to making your love life simpler.
Helpful, I’ll keep that in mind.

All this work, however, is totally worth it. I need the money, I’m not really falling behind, and who really needs a social life? But, I’m gonna have to start doing some homework over my lunch breaks. At least CrWr or maybe adding to my notes for Psych. With Fifa going on, we kept going to watch the last half of the games during lunch and eating at Boston Pizza. I don’t really care anymore since Italy got knocked out (*cringe*) since I don’t feel the need to cheer for any other team. I know they’re planning to go out again tomorrow, but it’s probably better if I don’t. I’ll get them to bring back some mints though. (It’s sad, I know, but I’m addicted to Boston Pizza mints. I’m not sure why. Actually, I do. They’re more like candy.)
I’m not really getting a lot of reading done either. (So why do I really really really want to buy stuff from Chapters?!) Women in Love is pretty enjoyable, but I haven’t really gotten sucked in with it, nor to I have a lot of time. When I bus to work with Mom, we usually talk through the bus rides. If we get a seat on the train, and she has her paper, then I read (rare). When we bus home, same deal, don’t read. I don’t read going to school, I only read coming back home. If we drive to work, I don’t read either way. I don’t have time to read other than that. That being said, I did read some really nice lines that I felt really connected to.  I think if I had the time, I’d really enjoy it.

On top of that, Ryan is coming into town again this weekend. Which is super awesome, but that also means I can’t do much in the way of homework. I’m hoping Phil doesn’t give out anything this week, but he tends to give a few assignments, then nothing, then the test, then nothing again. I’m not sure. This week’s homework wasn’t really difficult, but I kept worrying about missing something. I think when it comes to philosophy, I overthink things more than I don’t understand things. I guess my prof realizes that people will overthink, so he tends to say the same things over and over again. Which, I’m sure, can be effective, but that just makes me zone out and not pay attention. Which equals baaaaad.
I also need to catch up on my Psych notes since he’s been going faster and a lot of the information I don’t think I need to write down. I am reassured though. After I got 80% on my paper (which, I know, isn’t bad at all, but I still did the re-write), I was a little worried I was missing something, but I did really well on my test (which I had my doubts about), so I feel pretty good for this test. Now I just have to write another paper… Ugh. At least I know the movie better this time. I went with something I’d already seen. (A Beautiful Mind, which, now that I understand better, is an even better movie than I thought it was. They did a really good job of portraying the story of John Nash. <– Awkward sentence to avoid spoilers…)

So, maybe I’m not as bad off as I think I am. Like my boy toy always says, the student mentality. Yeah, it’s mental alright…

Dear Ms.              , 

I would once again like to extend my gratitude towards the                                                                                                    for helping me reach my educational and career goals. [This is also to confirm that I have received the cheque and it did not get lost in the mail.]

Dear Ms.           ,

I have received the bursary cheque and would once again like to extend my gratitude to the                         
                                     . This foundation has truly helped me reach my educational and career goals.

Dear Ms.             ,

You’re a pompous old fart and now I have your money. HA!

Dear Ms.            ,

Thank you for verbally harassing me on the phone. being extremely rude. Cow. If I didn’t need your money for crack, I’d have put a hit out on you.

…This is why I don’t write thank  you notes.

Helpful information.

Wow, so I haven’t been on here nearly enough lately. Not that I actually have anything interesting to say, but it probably helps for me to type something out every now and again, so here goes. Why do I almost always start a blog saying how uninteresting I am and then give a reason to keep blogging anyway? That’s kind of silly.

Anyway, I made it through my first week of full-time work, and it looks like I’ll still have plenty of time to keep up with my school work too. Work is good in itself. It’s easy, sometimes a little repetitive, but that’s not the worst thing in the world. It may sound a little full of myself to say this, but I happen to know I’m doing a really good job. I mean besides the fact that the tasks are extremely simple. The new guy is trying to get me to go to the kid’s camp and be the administrative assistant (just a fancy ass title for secretary) up there…but he’s doing so behind my back. As in going to his boss to see if she’ll offer this to me. Normally, I’d love to go up there for a few days. Not only is it an on-call position, meaning I’m not necessarily working the whole time, so I’ll have enough time to relax and enjoy the sunshine, but they pay for twelve hours a day since you’re living there. (At least for my position, I’m not sure how it works for the doctors and such, but whatever.) The thing is, I am still in school. Granted it’s only two classes a week, but I really can’t afford to miss them. I might actually miss something important (ha ha). Like, really, I’m flattered that they want me to work this position, but I really don’t think I can do it full-time, and it doesn’t make sense for me to bounce back and forth. Not to mention I don’t like children. (Not that I have to hang out with the buggers, but still.)

In other news, I finished The Hunchback of Notre Dame last week after my Psych test. (Yes, this is actual news in my life. This actually registers on the excitement meter if you want an idea of what the rest of my days are like.) I’m now moving on to Women in Love since I’m tired of having people talk about it and give details away. (And, yes, I actually remember most of them.) I’ve read less than twenty pages. That’s how busy I’ve been. Not to mention a lack of bus rides since I started reading it.

Anyone interested in a live poetry reading? (Attending one that is, not performing…unless you really want to, but you’d probably have to sign up or something…) I have to review one for my CrWr class by August. I’ll probs just go after work one night with Mom, but I thought I’d offer anyway. Ever monday night at some café by the Broadway skytrain station. I’ll have too check it out.

Also, there really is nothing better than watching an old(er) horror movie on a summer night. Too bad there was no one to watch it with me. Oh well. Prom Night (1980) came on last night. I was entertained. A couple of awesome suspense scenes, nothing I’d call scary. Little gross though. But that’s more of a personal squeamishness rather than actual gore. Definitely need to rent some one night. Anyone up for that? … Or not.

(Eet by Regina Spektor)

Ryan came down from Kelowna on Wednesday. We bought pie. Which was awesome. Then on Friday I went back up to Kelowna with him and I just got back today. Somehow, the trip back down here was much more stressful than anything else that happened this weekend. There were a couple timing issues, so my mom ended up waiting for me at the bus station for 30 minutes. Within that time, she managed to lock her keys in the car and was stuck sitting on the curb until I came into town. Needless to say, she was in quite a foul mood. I’ve spent the past few days in such a good mood that it kind of sucked to be home.
Well, even if she was cheerful it still sucks to be home. Kelowna isn’t anything special itself, but the mountains are awesome. Plus, there was good company. Really, I had such a good time this weekend. I got to see ultimate social awkwardness in person. HAPPINESS! To the freakin max!
NOTE TO SELF: Steal Chase for my collection. <3

I also start my job tomorrow. Here’s to attempting my course load with a full-time job! Should be fun, right? Except I found out today that I accidentally agreed to do an afterwork activity the night before my Psych test. Great. I guess I’ll just have to study ahead of time. Maybe I’ll finish my Phil reading tonight and then study tomorrow night and Tuesday night. Or, I could always wait and see when the hell I’m going to get home on Wednesday. That could work too.
Stress level of doom: Sneaking up on me…